March 22, 2005
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鎖國結束... GFV進UBC, 我要開殺戒了.
最近總覺得周圍不管發生什麼事都跟我沒有關係... 就連我自己的考試跟作業也是. 而我怎麼想也沒有人在乎. 的確, 我沒什麼好說的, 誰把我當一回事了? 去看看那些有人緣的人的日記, 就算他們只說今天吃了一碗烏龍麵都一堆回應. 我最近心情起伏大, 推心置腹的, 不過也是沒有什麼人鳥我. 哈哈. 或許經過那麼多年了, 我也該習慣了. 沒有辦法吧, 在他們眼中我的存在就是個失敗. 的確, 正是因為我什麼轟轟烈烈的事(不管好壞)也沒做, 對他們也沒什麼印象吧. (這麼說來, 還不如作了什麼白痴事...) 別人要怎麼想, 我是沒辦法控制, 原本好歹我把該做的事做得很好, 這就值得我滿足了. 不過最近... 我真的失去我的focus了. 課也不想上了, 書也不想讀了, 成績退步也沒有那麼在乎了. 我知道這麼做會讓家裡的人們失望, 我也知道這是我自己的人生. 可是... 為什麼? 我缺乏原動力. 原本相信的東西, 現在自己也開始懷疑了. 在心中有過一張未來的藍圖, 不過我現在覺得... 就算達成了, 又怎樣? "豁達"? 一切看開了就是豁達嗎? 那, 我這種"也不過就那樣"的感覺, 算不算?
也許沒有經歷過的我沒有這麼感覺的權利. 也許我問的是沒有人會回答的問題. 也許我這麼寫只會讓人覺得厭煩. 反正日記是紀錄心情用的, 不是交朋友用的. 受不了我碎碎念的人, go ahead and delete me now.
Comments (10)
日記是紀錄心情用的 : exactly
不是交朋友用的 : nah...i think that's how people 交流感情
i just read over some gurls xanga...gan about 21, 22 years old
med school candidate. got a lot of issues.
you should read her writing. its AWSOME.
i'll try find it again
as i said, believe in urself..三人行必有我師.. everyone has own unique.. everyone has different 優點.
don't envy on 不必要的人 or 事..maybe he is a sh*thole but u never know only..
i G-luck to all of my friends and i believe all of us will have a 燦爛的未來...i really do..
imanige after 9 years..we all gather around in a restaurant in Taipei, with own gf, bf, wife, husband, perhaps sons and daughters... i can't imanige how pretty it is going to be..i am waiting, and i really am..
呵呵.. 你至少還有過藍圖...
那種東西我想都沒想過...
豁達,豁達~
而且別再說什麼自己不重要,別人都不在意的那種話,
想想每次聊起高中生活的時候,不管是開懷大笑,或是其他的情形,你都是其中之一!
不管怎樣,我們這群人都有這共同的回憶~ chill~
Dude..你最近好像心情不太好哦!
I think is really good that everybody shares his or her own feeling on the blog
At least I know what everybody is up to...
I believe share feeling with each other is better than 交朋友
If you want to know a girl friend, I don't think this is a good place though...
畢竟網路是虛幻的!!
and..What's wrong with you!!??
I thought you are a very confident man!
Don't think you are worse than others..
And don't think 自己沒人氣!!
你非常的健談,很多PARTY和飯局..都需要你來打熱氣氛..
難道你還覺得你是多餘的,不重要的??
If you are not believing yourself....than nobody will
You are smart but plz Don't slack off!!! ...you got a great future if you work hard~
Now cheer up thug!!!
man, forget it..... i don't know what you are trying to say, but just forget it.
It's your life...control it before it controlls you
回應, 回應, 回應!
Haha... =P
Japaese class won't be Japanese class without Brina San
Linguistic won't be Linguistic without Brina San
Brina san shared a lot of great jokes and fun times with me
and those are memories thats important to me!
dats the truth!
and Japanese class without nico then i won't feel cold!
Deep shit...
You need to re-think about yourself and your future
Not everyone can be the president or prime minister or some important shit
Not everyone gets what they want.
The world is unfair, but you can still control your own path.
It's your choice to have a happy life or a sad life
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